Years Since Past

riding around,
i have lost my way

but then again

i am here

here i am


i watch you in mirrors
through glass
through glass


you're the book i read twelve times
and still cannot understand


like letters sent years since past
i see your face when i reminisce to fast


and all of the sudden my heart fills up
with the wings of butterflies that long ago passed
so i pretend i am a brick wall
but too soon i crumble down to the floor


oh and back when
i was with you

you reminded me of
a straw hat
on a hot summer day
to keep the sun
out of my face

or how one time you almost died
by running with scissors across my eyes


you filled the bathtub to over flow
you filled the sink to shave under you nose


i wasn't just young
or just naive
i wasn't innocent
or a petty tease
i was in it and
it was love



and it was sucking all my blood
draining all of me
draining me of all i was




but what about you


are you riding around?
in circles,
maybe squares,


but you are gone
so i shouldn't care



instead i wonder where i am

i'm riding around in
circles


i am here

here i am.